That is the dominant feeling right now: overwhelmed. Immobilized by the thought of the day’s tasks. Feeling sad and inadequate.
I’m not really immobilized. I can move forward but with disinterest and dread. The day’s prospects are like a tasteless meal.
Source of this feeling: work (over commitment and deadlines and failure to deliver, which combines to make me feel like a failure, having let people down). But also: I have not been assiduous in filtering mental input, keeping the political shit away from my mind. I have been browsing Twitter. YouTube (“I’m using it for educational purposes!” Has been the gateway drug.
Freedom. Use it again. I’m on the 6 am to 11 pm blocking schedule.
The right books. Back to the spiritual books for me.
The gym. Due to travel and the long weekend my exercise routines consisted of walking and running. Get back to lifting.
I am putting this little confession here because I know I will be in better spirits soon, but I want to acknowledge that my spirits go up and down.
Actually. At this moment as I type with my thumbs I feel better. I realize I am on The Path. EGBOK. No everything is ok right now.
I also told my wife I am feeling down in the dumps. That helped, too.