The more the day progresses today, the more stressed I become. At this point I’m just buzzing aimlessly.
New stuff inbound. Nothing being shipped outbound. The input channel is shut for new stuff but old stuff and old commitments continues to erupt into all new and much bigger.
Plus I’m rattled emotionally.
I got rattled by a random political bullshit flyer on a light post when we went to the taco truck the other night. And I got rattled by the Bird Martinez stabbing, which I saw today after finding her YouTube channel last night.
The first one (the flyer) was a mixture of me feeling personally attacked and vulnerable, while at the same time feeling anger at the stupidity of the message and messenger.
The second rattled me just because the attack was pointless and sad. (Apparently the assailant is her brother-in-law). I don’t know her, but the videos showed an open, decent, loyal, warm person beneath a layer of self-aware bravado. I gave $50 to the GoFundMe.
Time to Do One Thing. Get back to Now. Just do.