I am talking to myself. This time, it is really truly a rehearsal. I am reciting a speech in my head that I will never give to make myself look like a saint to an audience that doesn’t exist.
Stop it. This gets you nowhere.
I know, but my mind goes back there, by itself.
When you find yourself there again, just talk to God about it. Use the same internal verbalizing that you’re using to speak to your imaginary audience. It works for them, it will work for talking to God.
You talk today to the imaginary future audience so your ego feels big today. Or you reduce today’s fear of the future that might never come.
Yes, the speech assumes I moved to a new place to live and I’m giving a talk there, hoping to that people will like me. The likelihood of a move is remote but maybe I am afraid of being alone, or something like that.
Just so. If you are rehearsing today because you are afraid today of a future event, talk to God the same way you talk to yourself.
The future rarely happens the way you imagine it will. Talking to God will bring you back to now. you are always afraid now. Talking to God now will transform fear now. Let the future event happen or not. Probably it won’t, in reality.
And while you’re at it, do some menial task, like wiping down the kitchen counters or unloading the dishwasher. Talk to God and do something small that makes you feel good? That’s a recipe for success.
Yes, I wiped down the table. It had crumbs all over it. That felt good.
(NB: From the Observer. The Kingdom of God is within, as everyone from Jesus to Tim Grover has reminded you. You already know the answer. It’s just a matter of doing what you know you have to do. This episode just proved it, again.)
Hah. The Observer made an appearance! It’s turtles all the way up.