It’s a feeling I have. Frequently. Even now. I’m not doing enough. I’m not moving fast enough with what I’m doing. I should be doing more. I’m not smart enough and I should learn more. I’m not like able enough, and I should figure out how to change that.
Note that there are no upper bounds to these feelings. I could put on my running shoes, go outside, and run nonstop to Arizona at 40 mph. Guaranteed my head would say I should have stretched for 45 mph.
Single steps, one at a time.
Baby steps, tiny increments.
In reality these are the only actions I can take. I can only do one thing at a time. I can only make extremely modest progress in the next 10 seconds.
These are features of being human. I cannot change this.
Note: what can happen in 10 seconds and will have monumental impact?
An idea. A decision.
This dichotomy is where my distress comes from. In 1989 I made a single, pivotal decision. Every day since then has been slow, incremental progress on that decision.
Make the decision. Change the mindset. Instantly, you’re a new man.
But accept the physical limits of what will happen today, the day that you’re in right now. The me of today knows more than the me of 1989. The me of today is capable of more than the me of 1989. This is precisely because I (mostly) gave 100% of whatever I had going for me, in the day I was in. Some days I was running at 92% efficiency. Some days I was a depressed slug running at 4%. On both days, I gave 100% of 92% and 100% of 4%. Manifestation can take decades, and I am proof of that.
What you have is Enough. Just do what you can, today. It is Enough.
Baby steps are the only steps.