Author: Reality Laughs

God is with me now.

Thinking this morning of the two cosmic moments I have experienced — stone cold sober, walking around.

Remembering the one in which I was not, in fact, sober—decades before.

What a difference.

The “not” — me as observer, separate. Everything else as small, distant, angular, mechanical and infinite. Receding from view.

The two walking-around moments—enveloped in all that is, simultaneously insignificant and essential, powerless and in control, empathetic and detached.

Here and gone within a couple of seconds, and I remember the feeling of the moment dissipating, with resigned sadness. Of course I cannot live in that moment forever. (Or can I?)

I wonder if I will ever have another moment like that?

Interesting that both moments came while walking. Both on random urban sidewalks. Both in the midst of deep immersion into esoteric matters—primarily Fourth Way, and New Thought authors like Emmet Fox. Esoteric Christianity, basically. And deep in the program, of course.

Cosmic connection through chemical assistance? Limited and limiting. Seek light the slow way.

Display the contents of your mind in public. Let those who are interested stay with you.

Attraction, not promotion.

Everything around me, at one point, was merely a thought. Someone thought a thought, and made it real.

Except for reading some article and clicking through to something on x.com, no contact. I.e., no browsing the timeline. And I feel better.

No x.com.

The universe will deliver what you ask for. Be sensitive to the signals.

Today, my inbox contained two signals.

• “I would pay for your course on this topic if you offered it.”
• “How much for $project?”

The first is my heart’s desire. (To echo Emmet Fox). The latter is quick money.

I didn’t put these side by side for a while. Once I saw the two signals, both asking me for time and attention, I couldn’t unsee it.

Your Heart’s Desire? Or the easier, softer way?

Attention sovereignty. Pay attention to what you want. And slow down so you see what’s right in front of you.

First solitaire. After a few days the itch was gone. Today Twitter. Itchy all day.

But! Attention, focus.

Clear pill.

So look for what you want.