I deliberately turned off all analytics so I don’t know if anyone is reading this site.
This is important: I myself don’t matter, but if what I do helps another person, that matters. This is an implementation of B’s “I’m not here for you, I’m here for me . . . “ philosophy. And whether I know about the readers (if there are any) or not will not make any difference to that hypothetical reader.
I’m trying to keep the ego at bay.
Yet I keep wondering. Get tempted. Look at the stats button in the WordPress app. Maybe I should fire up analytics.
That’s the ego.
I am writing this to remind myself that the ego nudges to the forefront with all sorts of reasons why it needs to be fed. They’re bullshit reasons, lies.
Keep your head down and just write for yourself. It’s working. It’s making your own life better. That’s the only reason you’re doing this.
But keep doing it in public, because even though I’m here for me, maybe this will help someone else. Just remember that they get whatever they get. It’s out of your control what they get, and it’s out of your control if anyone ever reads these words.
I don’t want to know about other people reading this, because that would give me a big fat head. (Or maybe they would criticize me and I would be sad.)
I’m not strong enough to fight off the ego, so it’s better to not let it put down roots at all. Stay invisible, make it impossible to know what’s happening out there. Put your head down and do the work.